pregnant & emotional, go figure

I'm not the picture perfect mom-to-be...

With the picture perfect house, a husband by my side, or total financial security.

I did not plan and try for years to have a baby like many deserving couples out there.

Even though my baby boy was a tad of a surprise I have never once looked at him as a mistake or anything short of a miracle.

The way things in my life have turned out are not quite what i anticipated. I never expected to be going through such a great, amazing time in my life without my 'partner' (baby daddy, whatever you want to call it) being by my side every step of the way. Most days i'm fine, but there are some days where it breaks my heart. I am lucky enough to have fabulous friends & family that love me dearly.

So just because I'm only 21, I don't have my own home or I do not have a wedding ring on my left hand doesn't mean i'll be any less of a mother.

If anything I believe it will make me a better, stronger person and mother.



Nobody said pregnancy would be easy, they just said it would be worth it...

Today I am 35 weeks & 2 days pregnant, only 4 weeks & 5 days left! :/

I have officially gotten to the point of feeling very uncomfortable. I'm still working full time, but beginning to notice my body does not like it very much. The cramping/pains in my lower abdomen have become a daily occurance recently. The Dr said it is probably from the muscles in my abdomen being under all the stress of holding up my heavy uterus.

Also been having more 'Braxton Hicks' contractions- also known as false labor or practice contractions, are sporadic uterine contractions that sometimes start around 6 weeks. However, they are not usually felt until the second trimester or third trimester of pregnancy.

 I've been trying to rest and keep my feet up as much as I can when I'm not working; of course when i'm not working  is when I obsess over my list of things that need to get done before baby boy arrives.

It's slowly all coming together though, I got the car cleaned inside & out today. Next week i'll get the carseat installed and make sure my hospital bag is in order. Once I get those big things finished I'll feel much better knowing i'm prepared.

The anxiety for the delivery process is definitely setting in at this point. We have our childbirthing class next Saturday so hopefully that will help, or either scare me more! haha

I know it's not going to be the most pleasant thing, but the thought of seeing and holding him makes it all worth while..

Mommy can't wait to meet you little man! 

"Mommy's Little Pumpkin"

Baby Names....

So deciding on a name for my baby boy has been a much harder task than I anticipated. I/we pretty much new from the beginning his first name was going to be Brayden. I have loved that name since the show Summerland.

 The middle name has given me a lot more trouble though. 

You have to think about things such as what sounds good, what his initials will be, or if ill be able to scream it easily when he's in trouble! 

So far I have...

Brayden Ray

Brayden Avery

Brayden Luke

Brayden Thomas 

Maybe I just won't decide until I see him...